then the ETERNAL HEX placed on me kicked in, and i fell extremely ill.
so i left korea a lot sooner than i expected,
and didn't get to do any of those things...
there are so many things that i have been able to experience here in canada that i would have missed out on if i was in korea.
~~ i've been able to celebrate easter, 2 long weekends, and canada day with my friends and family
~~ i have been involved in the process of selling and redecorating my aunt's house.
~~ discovered who my true friends are
~~ had an amazing opportunity to work in a lawyer's office - money & experience !!
~~ AND we sold our old trailer for a new one. it sounds cheesy, but being there when it left was so important to me. 10 years of growing and memories is too special to give up without saying goodbye. It was a special moment i was so happy to share with my family.
~and there have been many more things that have happened as well. little moments that have made me grateful.~
sometimes, when something bad happens to a you, it is so easy to focus on the negative. i was (and still am) like this, but i am slowly starting to realize it takes a bigger, stronger person to accept it, let it be, and move on. it has been so difficult for me to accept the fact that my exchange was not perfect - it had it's ups and downs- and that is was cut short because of illness. When we have a timeline in our head of how we want things to unfold, it's difficult to accept the change- especially when it comes out of the blue so suddenly.
But it happened..
And that's okay.
being back home has put such a perspective on life, my home country, and the things that really matter. i feel so blessed to have come from such an amazing and free country; and i hope that one day, others will realize how lucky we are to be canadian.
i'm patriotic, i am proud,
and korea has helped me to be become the person i am today.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
while in camping in wingham with my family for canada day, we went to the LCBO. we bought our usual order, but before we left, a little voice inside of me said
"ASK ABOUT SOJU"
so i did.
and it just so happened that they had 1 box of it in the back room, waiting for a korean family to pick it up.
they sold me a few bottles of it anyways.
i've never felt so at home, hopefully the clerk didn't mind my crying.
i had my little bit of korea on the day i was supposed to leave..
sometimes, things work out for the better.
it's all on your perspective.